North Shore
Date: 17.02.2008
Keywords: North, Shore,
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I took Ken's hand and leaned over to whisper to her as we walked.
"I'd like to know what you are thinking."
Gui-Feng shook her head. "I can't say. I could say something stupid."
"I say stupid things all the time."
"That's different."
"I know you are working and trying to charm us, but I'd like to know the real you. You've been confident and perfect for us all night. What else is there?"
She took what I said in instantly. "I could tell you were seeing through me. I was kind of hoping you'd let it slide and just play the game."
"I didn't see through you. You were doing what we asked you to do."
"That's what I tell myself, too."
"So tell me something stupid that you will regret."
She sighed. "I just don't want to be part of screwing you two up. You've got something good, Ashleigh, and I'm not going to be the one to crash it down. I try to make people's lives better, if only for one night. I am not sure if your lives will be better after tonight. I keep looking for answers, but they don't come."
"I've been looking for an answer, too, but nadda."
Ken joined in. "Why do things always have answers? What sort of question would you ask here anyway?"
I stopped whispering. "You want to know one more reason why I am an idiot, Gui-Feng? I sometimes think that I'm smarter than Ken."
Ken started laughing, "You are, Ashleigh."
"No, I'm not. I assume that because I read a lot more than you that I must be smarter. But that's so clearly dumb it's almost self-contradictory."
"But, Ashleigh," said Gui-Feng, "You show your intelligence all the time."
"I hope you aren't going to say it's because I can do math quickly."
"No, it's because you really listen and think. At dinner, I was going off about Greek philosophy, partly because I enjoy it and partly to show off, but you didn't let me get away with anything. You'd be shocked how many people think that because someone can throw a long name out there that they must be saying something important. But you don't fall for it. You question it if Herodotus said it or if Jimmy at the garage said it."
"Hey, no garage jokes," Ken threw out.
"I'm not sure that's such a great thing," I answered. "I sound like a pit bull – or, worse, a lawyer."
"And," Ken continued, apparently ignoring me in turn, "You say it when you don't understand. I've always thought that was great. You aren't being self-effacing, because that's boring. You are being honest."
"So you are telling me that I am smart exactly because I have no idea what I am talking about most of the time."
"Yeah."
"That's the start of wisdom," Gui-Feng finished. "Just look it up in Plato."
I couldn't help but grin at Gui-Feng's meta-joke. Anyway, Plato was a short word.
"Then I will admit right now to the two of you that I have no idea what I am doing here, why I'm here, or how it will end up."
"Same here," said Gui-Feng.
"Oh yeah," said Ken.
And with that we all headed off towards the exploding volcano.
---
As we walked, I did have some idea what I was doing here. I was here to kiss Gui-Feng. I just didn't know why I wanted to kiss her. Surely, I could figure it out. Why did I like to kiss Ken? Because he could be nice and sexy and I loved him. Well, Gui-Feng was certainly sexy, but I couldn't love her yet, since I had just met her. I wanted to love her, I knew that. Wait, why the hell would I want to love someone I had just met? That was ridiculous, and yet it was true. What was going on inside me?
Gui-Feng suddenly leaned into my body. "I think you're wonderful," she said quietly, her breath fluttering by my ear and over my cheek. All my thoughts joined her breath and disappeared into the warm Vegas air.
"Me, too. I mean, I think you are," I said quickly blushing as I had almost praised myself. But of course she knew what I meant. I felt like a kid around her.
I felt her pulling me closer as we walked, as if the desert had become cold and she needed warmth. "I just want you to know that, because I am going to have to pay a little less attention to you than I'd like."
"Oh, well, that's fine." She was already losing interest? But she had just said-
"Ken, would you mind grabbing us a bottle of water?" Gui-Feng asked.
"No prob," he responded and vanished into a convenience store. I chuckled at Gui-Feng's transparent request to get some alone time and Kenji's immediate acceptance of it. Now, if only he'd do what I say every once in a while....
"I need to seduce your husband."
I couldn't help but cock an eyebrow at that.
"I know it's hard to believe, but he's only here for you. If I am going to do my job for both of you, I need to get his attention a little more."
"Gui-Feng, I know it was my idea originally, but what man doesn't want to be with two women? It's everyone's fantasy."
"Kenji seems to be one person for whom it isn't."
"He fell down the stairs when he saw you."
"Yes, wasn't that sexy? But he's looking at me and thinking about you." She began to wiggle her capris down a little lower until the top of tiny looking black silk panties could be seen.
"I think he'll like that," I responded, not adding how I liked it.
Her eyes flashed at me. "That was for you, Ashleigh. I'm not only a friend."
I immediately wanted to protest and tell her I was attracted to her personality, not just her body, but I couldn't get it out. Every time I tried to speak my eyes wandered to that tiny fabric that looked like a thong and her slender stomach disappearing into it.
She watched me looking at that spot and then looking away. Her eyes twinkled and with a "c'm here," she lead me around a corner and down a side street where it was a little darker and quieter. There were a few people around but not like on the main Strip. She drew me closer to her. "Ashleigh," she started. "You should know something. About me. Before. I mean. Wow, I can't get it out. I think you are about to hear one of my stupid things."
I wanted to reassure her, but we were too close now to think. I remembered staring like this at my first serious boyfriend as we worked our way towards a first kiss. What I loved or hated, I don't know which, is that it felt just as good. I wanted this to happen. "What's the stupid thing?"
"Ashleigh, when not working, I'm.... No, I'm sorry. I shouldn't say anything. That's far too much pressure on you. I am being stupid."
"I can handle it."
"But you don't need to handle it. It's my issue."
"What are we talking about, Gui-Feng?"
She only shook her head. "Ashleigh," she looked into my eyes, "would you touch me?"
Oh yes, I could do that. I couldn't help but look around first though. There were only a few people and it was dark. Was that man looking at us? Maybe. Oh, who cares? My body was just a couple inches from hers. "Where?" I asked.
She smiled but it quickly vanished. "Here," she replied with a breath and lifted her shirt just a touch to indicate the spot between her navel and her now low-riding capris. The place I had been staring at. My heart pounded under my breast.
"I'll try." I raised a hand slowly towards her, but I could see it shaking.
"You don't have to, Ashleigh. You're scared."
"I want to." I did, so why was I shaking? I gently placed my fingers just touching her skin. I could barely feel her because my hand was trembling so much that any contact was momentary. "It looks like I am scared," I added as we both stood there watching my hand twitching up and down as it barely grazed her body.
"That's the most beautiful thing I've ever seen," Gui-Feng replied.
"Yes, you are," I answered before stopping myself.
"You have a hair in your eyes," Gui-Feng said and I felt her cool breath on my face as she blew the stray lock away. "I wanted to see you," she explained.
I nodded, but kept staring at her abdomen. Her pants were low enough now that I realized that she must shave some part of herself. I hadn't done that at all. Why hadn't I done anything to get ready for this beautiful woman? I could see my lips on that skin, right where my fingers were, kissing downwards.
"Would you like to move your fingers lower or, um, to the side, or anything? I don't mind; I mean, I'd like that."
Lower? Caress the most beautiful stomach in the world? I tried to make my fingers do it but they just sat there not moving, only shaking. I tried again but they wouldn't go. The shaking was getting worse. I wasn't even touching her now. Was my whole body trembling?
Gui-Feng moved away just a step and grabbed both of my hands. "Ashleigh, relax. We'll get you there. Okay? I know it's hard. I've been through this before."
Why was it hard though? Why don't I own my own mind?
Gui-Feng shook her head. "Good lord, Ashleigh. I'm supposed to be seducing Ken and here we are. Wow, what you do to me."
"Me?"
"C'mon, Ken's probably been sitting with a bottle of water for 10 minutes." We started walking the twenty feet back to the main road. "Now, we must remember," she said with a light laugh. "I'm supposed to be seducing him!"
I realized I had never really thought about this part, but I knew how I felt. "I want you to, Gui-Feng," I told her. "It seems best."
"Good," she replied. "We'll know if it is working if he starts clinging to you."
"If he wants you, why cling to me?"
"Protection."
When we found Ken she started her seduction as oddly as I could imagine. "Ken, I think your wife is the cutest thing ever."
"Of course, she is."
---
We continued down the Strip, but I wasn't really with Ken and Gui-Feng for most of it. My feet kept up, but my mind was still in the street with the ghost of Gui-Feng. All she had wanted was a caress. Why couldn't I do it? I didn't live in a closet. I had been out to bars in college where women frenched each other to the delight of their boyfriends. I had been out with lesbian friends or co-workers who kissed in front of me. I wasn't scared of being with another woman. Not like that. Was I?
I caught Gui-Feng's lips shining in the neon lights, moist and rich. I just watched them moving.
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Keywords: North, Shore,